The other day the teeny tiny charger plug inside my f&*^$%en blackberry broke. It was 2PM in the afternoon, I was going to be in back-to-back meetings and a dinner until 10PM that night, I needed to call a person I was meeting to set a meeting place, I needed to access Google Maps, my battery died and now I was suck without access.
I felt like a floating planet, suspended in outer space without a line back to planet earth.
What a strange, slightly desperate feeling I was experiencing. And yet, I was able to objectively look at my feelings and recognize how ridiculous it all was.
We all know there was life before cell phones and blackberries right? Business happened, people found each other; no one was lost or misplaced.
No one floated into a galaxy far far away.
Breathe.
Luckily my next meeting was at a fantastic place I discovered on 18th and Sanchez in San Francisco called Samovar Tea Lounge. All I need to say is "tea lounge" and you can imagine that I couldn't hold on to my anxiety for long.
Once I arrived I kindly asked to borrow the phone. Then I sat and waited for my associate to arrive.
No blackberry to keep me busy while waiting. No idea if my associate heard my location clearly. No way for her to call me if she got lost.
Breathe.
Ahhh. She arrived.
After that meeting, there was no way for my next meeting to call me if she was late or visa versa.
No way for me to remind my husband that I would be home late.
I borrowed a phone again, made a few calls and "let go".
It all sounds good but I neglected to mention the level of anxiety about the company. I couldn't read and respond to email on the fly. I'd be out until 10 PM.
No contact from 2PM till 10PM?
What if?
What if WHAT?
Breathe.
Yesterday I was in the office all day.
Today I went to my service provider, AT&T to see if they could replace my broken blackberry.
No warranty on phones with physical damage. See if Blackberry can help.
Another full day of meetings. No Phone. No email.
Guess what?
Nothing happened.
The world didn't fall apart.
I was 10 minutes late to a meeting but they waited.
My daughter was picked up from school.
It's ALL OKAY.....
Inhale. Exhale.